dear darLing,
looking at the pics you show me, frankly, i'm so proud of you from the bottom of my heart. i am not lying to you. unfortunatly,i can't tell you why, even to myself for i didn't find the answer. or maybe i just so cowardly that i can't face the true feeling haunting my mind, that i still love you...
it's been such a tough time for me staying idle without your accompany. it's definitely cruel to me, whereas i know no blame should be put upon you. you have been engaged in uncountable business that left no time for you to rest. so it's ruthless of my blaming on your neglect. i have to admit that it's my fault. i'm sorry darLing. if only were at your position, should i know how innocent you are. i hereby make the offical apology, hope you would forgive me.
another reason for my being so unreasonable is that i've been obsessed with sex. i know i can deal with it myself. however the loneliness after the self-abuse dampen my ardor so hard that i desire for your love strongly. i love you darLing.
there's nothing else i want to say for the time being, i just want you to come to my distance. i miss you!